When's it coming...
when will it happen...
when will The Idea arrive...?
just keep blogging, just keep blogging, just keep blogging, blogging, blogging...
inspiration from Dory!
There are so many things I could have "just blogged about" since January 21st after a few weeks worth of Ideas...but wanting to be full of wit, gracious words and deep insight has left me shrinking back from the old blog...what if no-one reads it...I'm already way behind on page views compared to the other wonder mum's with their wonder mum blogs.
This is why I don't put up my statistics. It's an unhelpful "my blog is better than yours!" (I'm humming that to the song about milkshake... you know the one). And although every blog is every blogger's 15 minutes of fame on their own little stage I didn't blog for the ego boost originally. I blogged to be an encouragement to others. Honest, that's how it started.
Of course it's lovely to have comments, it makes me feel like what I have to say matters. It's lovely to see people reading what I've written and I 'humbly' receive comments from close friends and family who keep themselves up to date with the blog.
But what's the point if it takes months between posts...bloggers's block, too busy, too uninspired, not enough of an ego boost to be worth the effort...the newbie bloggers buzz has subsided..and I'm just me.
what if I'm just really a rubbish Christian and I can no longer "confess" because I too am trying to be a wonder mum blogger when really I'm just a blunder mum blogger. A mum who's yelled at her daughter three times already today, sat in front of the telly instead of cleaning the bathroom or reading her Bible...
I must confess I know people will say "it's ok, we all do these things... it could be worse".
It could be a lot worse. I could face all this without knowing that
"When I'm stained with guilt and sin,
he is there to lift me, heal me and forgive me,
gives me strength to stand again,
stronger than I was before"
here beginneth "confessions of a blunder mum"!
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